Well Thanksgiving was always one of my favorite holidays. Maybe it was because all the family was always together. Mom cooked and pulled out the china. I loved having all my cousins around! My Grandparents came to eat and we all spend the whole day together.
Five years ago Thanksgiving changed for me. As you all know my Grampa was a very very special man to me. On November 22, 2006, the day before Thanksgiving (his favorite holiday), he went home to Jesus.This year our traditions changed. Instead of using China and my Great-Grandmothers silver, we ate with our fingers on paper plates. We all sat in shock as my cousins ex-husband brought in Thanksgiving dinner. He just knew that Aunt Martha (my mom) couldn't cook it all. We sat and ate, laughed, and of course cried. On Thanksgiving night our preacher came over to plan the memorial service. It was all still surreal. Even though I had prepared for this day for ten years, I wasn't ready. I am still not ready. I have cried all day. I know I shouldn't but this year is harder than the past few years. I don't know if it is because its the fifth year, or because of baby Seth. I so wish he could have held him just once. I know how proud he would be, but I also know that he is in heaven and he is my guardian angel. I have felt this since the moment he passed.
We had always said when he died we were going on a cruise the next year for the holidays. Well, that never happened. We did however change our traditions. We moved holiday meals to my house for the most part. Mom and I do the cooking, and we now eat on my china! I still pull out my Great-Grandmothers Silver (that reminds me I need to do that!!!). This year I plan on teaching Savannah how to polish it. That was always my job as a child, and she will one day inherit the silver from me. Savannah is a sappy emotional cry baby like her aunt. My family is also planning on two meals since everyone will be here for several days. Mom says it will keep us from over eating. I think she forgot who she is talking about!
My siblings and I are also planning on adding another meal. This is my Dad's first Thanksgiving without his mother. She passed away in October, and I know it will be a difficult week for him. We thought we could attempt breakfast on Saturday. Maybe this will start a new tradition. I am not close to my Dad, but I would like for him to get to know his grandchildren.
I will take some pictures this weekend and post them next week.
I also have lots of pictures from our Zoo trip two weeks ago and Seth's four month update. This kid is huge!!! I am not prepared for im to be so big, and I am in denile!
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